Here's the story of Bill's surgery experience at Seton, as recounted by Caris, who again, was awake for more of the day than Bill ;)
, which lead to the discovery of a tumor in his right frontal lobe. This is the story of the craniotomy - a resection of much of his right frontal lobe to remove most (but not all) of the troublemaking tumor.
Pre-op
Bill and I arrived at the hospital at 4:45am for a pre-op head marker placement and MRI. We were the first ones in the waiting room and the first ones in a room.
The anesthesiologist was Dr. Nicholas Lee, and he was great. He found out about Bill's background in fluid dynamics and explained all the different IVs and why they were placed where they were, why their tubes were various levels of firmness, etc. Basically: because of fluid dynamics. Dr. Lee was a really nice guy, and super cool.
Bill's MRI went well. They placed an IV him, did a ton of checks on his medical history. My friend Taylor's dad, Dr. James Smith, came by. He's an orthopedic surgeon at Seton. He'd heard we were going to be around and came by to say hi and offer some encouragement. It was very kind, and I know Bill appreciated it very much.
The surgeon, Dr. Kemper, came by for a quick chat and Bill was off to surgery right on time.
During surgery
I was waiting in the ICU waiting room with the larger group of family and friends most of the day. It was a lot of waiting.
Virginia and Catherine beat me to the waiting room with tacos. My wonderful coworker Taylor brought a huge bag of bagels for sharing.
Shortly after that, my folks and Bill's folks arrived. Bill's sister and some family friends from Longview arrived.
Waiting. Waiting. Waiting.
I got a text from Amelia who was picking up samples to take to the tumor bank at UT. Success! I breathed a small sigh of relief, because that meant the surgery was definitely happening and they were mostly done.
An ancient ICU waiting room volunteer who was a bit of a close-talker got a little bit in my face with her somewhat insistent offer to check in on the surgery and make them give me an update. I had just heard from Amelia and didn't want to interrupt the surgeon, so I declined. I thought but resisted screaming, "NO SERIOUSLY, LADY, LET THE BRAIN SURGEON OPERATE ON THE ROCKET SCIENTIST IN PEACE."
Post surgery
The surgeon came by around 11 or 11:30 to tell me that everything went very well and Bill was in recovery in the ICU. The only diagnosis he could offer at this point was to confirm that, broadly, what they had taken out was likely a high grade (~3ish) glioma. He did say that they removed the dark spot as well as a much smaller metabolically active light spot that we had seen on previous MRIs. He was pleased with his work. He left and, of course, I sobbed.
Not two minutes later a clinical assistant came to get me and bring me back to Bill's room as he was already conscious and talking. Bill had described me as "the lady with the pixie haircut," but apparently the (male) clinical assistant had no idea what a pixie haircut was, so he was amused to learn a new term for a hairstyle.
ICU during the day (noon to 8 or so)
Bill was awake and talking, but still dopey. "Hey baby! Fuck cancer! My head hurts!"
The nurse told me that Bill was the first neurosurgery patient he'd ever seen wave at people as he was being wheeled from the OR to the ICU. Apparently Bill wakes up quickly!
I nearly fainted at one point during my first visit to see Bill, but I do know how to control my vagus reactions (head down below the heart ASAP, so I sat down and put my head between my knees). Bill had a huge angular wound dressing from the middle of his forehead back to the middle of his head and down to his ear. There were little bits of blood on him, and a few visible staples around his head from the tools that the surgeon used to secure him to the table.
My second visit to see Bill went better, and I didn't feel faint anymore.
His nurse in the ICU that first shift was named Greg. Greg was great. His night nurse was Carrie. It was Carrie's last day in the ICU at Seton before moving on to another job, and I think she enjoyed Bill's sense of humor. Greg and Carrie were attentive with the morphine to help Bill nap off and on, even though Bill claimed it didn't make his headache subside. It did let him sleep through the pain, so that was good. Bill is hilarious on morphine.
Our families and friends traded out short visits with Bill in the ICU with most of us gathered in the ICU waiting room all day.
Keppra panic
At some point around 5pm, I realized that Bill hasn't had his anti-seizure med, Keppra, since he took it at 4am prior to surgery and it's a twice a day drug. I ask Nurse Greg if Bill has had his Keppra and Greg says, "What Keppra?"
I think the look of horror on my face conveyed the urgency of this request. Keppra is very, very important. Keppra is the drug keeping Bill from having seizures. Keppra is numero uno on my must-have-on-time drug list. The surgeon or someone on his team forgot to write an order to continue Bill's Keppra. The nurse called the surgeon.
The surgeon approved the Keppra and then the pharmacy took forever to fill it. At some point, I offer to go home and get Bill's Keppra from our pills at home, but apparently the hospital doesn't like outside drugs. I threaten that I really do not care and will fix this on my own if I need to. Greg promises me he will not go off-shift if Bill hasn't had his Keppra.
Eventually the Keppra arrives around 7 and Bill doesn't have a seizure. PHEW.
Lesson learned: if you're the patient, it's important to have someone tracking your meds, especially the important ones. This person, this primary caregiver, needs to be there with the patient to ask these questions. Someone who isn't the patient needs to know all the things and needs to ask LOTS of questions. It's helpful if this person has good notes (thanks
Evernote!)
How bad would it have been for Bill to have a seizure a few hours out of brain surgery? PRETTY F*CKING BAD.
ICU at night (9pm to 1am)
It became clear that it wasn't going to be feasible for me to spend the night in the ICU with Bill. He wanted his iPhone, but he was dopey enough on his meds to not be able to keep track of it, so I wouldn't let him have it that night. He also needed brain rest, and I knew he'd be all over Facebook and email (possibly saying regrettable things! Morphine is crazy!) if I didn't keep his phone.
I did help him figure out how to call me from the room phone. We discussed a couple times that I had to go home for a few hours because of the ICU rules, but that he could call me, or he could tell his nurse to call me and she would. I cleared all of this with the nurse and told her to definitely call me if he asked, not just in case of emergency.
Around 9, Bill started to nod off again. I made sure his room phone was in reach and kissed him goodnight. I sobbed when I got to the car.
I got home and discussed the day with our house/dogsitter. What a weird day. What a weird two weeks.
10pm
I was getting ready for bed and my phone rang. It was the ICU. Oh crap.
Conversation excerpt:
Me:"Hello?"
Bill: "Heeeey baby! Where is everybody? Tell people to come to my room and talk to me!"
Me: "Hey honey! They had to go home. The ICU doesn't allow visitors at night. So we'll all be back in the morning. Are you bored?"
Bill: "oh. So nobody can come talk to me?"
(yes, this is the point where my heart broke.)
Me: "No baby, I'm sorry, not for a few hours. You've got to try to rest though, because it's nighttime. Does your head hurt?"
Bill: "Yeah, my head hurts."
Me: "Maybe ask Carrie for some pain meds? You don't need to endure pain. Use your call button to ask, ok?"
Bill: "OK. I love you."
Me: "I love you, too. See you in a few hours. Try to rest."
I hope he got pain meds, because I knew that the meds would help him sleep. I passed out around 10:30 in my own bed.
1am (the next day)
My phone rang. ICU again. Bill remembered how to use that room phone to dial out, for someone who wasn't remembering a lot of things at the moment.
Bill: "Where is everybody? Can you come to my room and talk to me?"
Me: "Oh dear, I can't, because I'm home. Everybody else is sleeping right now. The ICU doesn't allow visitors at night, remember? But I'll be there in a few hours so I don't miss the doctor, I promise."
Bill: "Oh, ok" (clearly disappointed in me.)
We repeated some parts of the previous conversation about what would happen the next day, when the surgeon would visit to check in, and said good night again. Poor Bill's internal clock was totally thrown off and he was lonely, bored, dopey from all the drugs and trauma, and in a bit of pain.
I didn't get another phone call from Bill in the ICU that night, so I assume he slept some.
The ICU is confusing and terrible for patients, but the staff there is wonderful. At some point I will write a little bit about the next day or so - our move from the ICU to a regular room and further recovery.